D’s Love Life and Her Will
Could be my deepest desires or thoughts, what else Marriage Life. Yes. Am 26th, the next year am going to be 27th..Most of peeps said is the ages of crucial times for women. When I was young – mean like early 20ish I wanna have that sacral commitment like in a 21st or 22nd , was met with someone that perfectly he’s the one (guess so-at that moment), we’re having like 4 years seriously commitment – de facto partnership, we share a house even the furnish, having joined bank account for our next life, our parents and family are old best friends, they say for each other –in laws, but things suddenly fucked up, I couldn’t stand anymore with the abusing, we’re broke up like more than twice, and I always take him back with several conditions to make the things right, such as no harsh or abusing. I know he cheated on me, while am gone and still I took him back. Well as a human am having climax, can’t stand with liar, cheated, the harsh and abuse. Because I need a secure man for my entire life, I don’t wanna sleep next to the killers. Ok. The next my love life am having fling fling with several guys, and they proposed me to married – helloooo I don’t even know you well, guys. I declined. After am searching for my lost soulmate, I met this settled hunk- he’s so damn prepared with marriage, we planned it even I decorate myself the house of ours. Things just normally, until one day he was gone to some city- never picked up the phone even reply the texted, can’t reach at all- and oh am not so closed with his busy parents (his pa is running for the local election and his ma is running for the governor of his hometown)- riddle to my mind..and yes he’s having a beau, his lost beau and gonna be married in 2 months..what the F word! He never say something or anything, until his wedding day, he never say anything..and you know what after that he still can say heart to me..watt? come on you bastardo, u belong to someone now and it sins to fallin in love with other girl..such a man..Kinda down with my life as always having fling fling are the best thing. I met this one fling but I suddenly turns into love, such a true love.. the geminian boy (I was hate or even will ever hate Geminian), yes the missing guy. I thought he was gonna be my rebounder, time goes by the time I truly can’t resist his feeling and another things that I never got with others I am falling to his family. The first times I met them, am in love with them..and yes I wanna be part of them. I can chat so deeply and easily with his parents especially his ma. I love her. I wish I had his ma for my entire life – doesn’t mean I don’t like my ma..and wat so the stories next? As you may read previous post, am having lost missing boy that I adore. Ok. Am having this split up feeling, he wanna moved on with his lost beau (oh nottagain..mann)..but I know his deep down inside, scared of something, scared of marriage..marriage with wrong person.. I dunno dear, I f u read this my best suggest is come closed to your God, do the Istikharah pray. We’re not talking about thingking or feeling. But its about the future, his future and am so concerned about his future, whatever happens between us, the worst one, I still concerned with his future such as his health and financial-indeed. I don’t wannna him having “boncos” life with wrong person, I wanna him having a great taker-the best one, who treat him much better than I do, he needs someone to take care- massages when had stressed, cuddling with serious conversation, clean up his room-clothes, dvds, dusts and stuffs..pheew..reminds him to take Friday pray (if this beau love him-she MUST! Reminds him..I want him had a place in God’s )..check up the dental and health. A lot things to tk care of him. So to be love him is not about romance or having sex in bed, its about caring, giving the best thing for his life is like having big O..yes..my very big pleasures. I should let my ego not to dominated, if his happy I really do happy for him. All I want is the best thing for him- even still I can’t reach him I want him to have this “shoots” passion as my present via my bestie- and I did It..cant imagine how fun he is..using my trainer and my bullets..and I keep up this as my secret. Thanks to my bestie. And now am so concerned to his thin bod, I should think something for his health. Gilaaaa orang di dump aja masih sempetnya mikirin orang laiiinnn…that’s love, baby-its not only romance, its truly from inside and those are what you will need in your next life for marriage. You can only do romance (sex –touching-kissing) like for 7-8 years and then what else..when you get older, what you need is someone to take care of you, not someone who double you up to relations..rite? cheat behind you while you’re busy, having lost trust to your mate – those are totally not my type and dear I truly want you to have someone who can sacrifice more than I do, not cental centil girls..so, whatever it is, pray the best for you.
